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Sun, Sep. 7th, 2008, 06:21 pm
Long Break

The summer is winding down and I just realized I haven't even looked at my lj since my last post.

I guess things are shifting and lj is becoming less relevant.

I'm getting to an age where new things are just starting to bother me more frequently. I'm not a full-on curmudgeon yet, but I feel like lj was THE social network before all these bratty little sites like facebook came around. It's like I owe lj some loyalty or something which is ridiculous since by that very logic, I'd still be posting on usenet and updating my status over good old finger.

So what to do? Let it stand and collect digital dust or just return to it whenever the fancy strikes (as I do now)?

Not like it's going anywhere if I don't use it I guess.

That's the good ol' Internet for ya.

It never forgets (unlike me). :)

Wed, Jul. 16th, 2008, 12:29 am
Posting from Facebook -- Trying out Blog It by Six Apart

Not much to say. Just looking for a way to hook my blogs into Facebook so my friends can get updates on my sites. This doesn't look like the solution however.

Merh. Just a shot in the dark.

Tue, Jul. 15th, 2008, 03:41 pm
Summer Bad Timing

I have terrible timing this summer.

My only escape this summer is a trip to Tokyo, which will no doubt be amazing -- but it will lack my friends. :(

And when I get back, there will probably be very little partying aside from the two weddings I am attending as my black belt grading is coming up and my sensei is really urging me to take more classes.

I'm sorry everyone; this isn't going to be as fun as last summer. :(

However, with a little support I might make it through this.

Wish me luck.

Just so you all know: I'll be training monday, tuesday, saturday during the day, and sunday during the day... no partying for this ninja. Starting the last week of August up until the 28th of September, that schedule will probably increase.

I don't know how I'll do it as the prospect of having no life outside the dojo kinda makes me want to call it quits already... yet I really want that black belt. I don't really see a point in staying in karate without progressing and it's next step. I just wish I had waited until winter or something. I'm going to miss out on the rest of summer fun.

Tokyo better be worth it.

Thu, Jun. 19th, 2008, 09:19 pm
I need to get out of here...

Toronto is starting to feel claustrophobic. You keep running into the same people over again. The same events happen every year. The same trends come and go only to return even more superficial than before. It's the same old day in, day out; same old job, same old hipsters -- the art's the same, the people are the same and it all gets to me in the same way.

I have half-a-mind to just pick up and go somewhere. Start fresh in a completely new place. Maybe do nothing at all. Just wander from town to town. Live on a free spirit and the kindness of strangers.

Of course, this is all romantic. This is life after all. There is no freedom from the mundane. There is no common sense. It's just madness over and over again.

Thu, Jun. 12th, 2008, 10:11 am
Want to go to Japan

Trying to plan my first vacation trip ever and I think I want to go big and head over to Japan. I probably still have rosey glasses on, but I can't help romanticizing the idea of what it will be like. Shibuya, Shinjuku, Akhibara; all exciting looking places. There are shrines to visit and even the founding dojo of my karate ryu.

Trying to find good advice on what its like to travel there. Expedia just lists your usual packages and seems like the expensive (but all inclusive) option. I'm having fun digging through wikitravel and the various expat blogs, but all the tips and advice are piece-meal, discordant, and difficult to follow. Has anyone I know traveled there before?

Well.. have to apply for my passport this week and file my taxes before I can even think about going for sure.

If it turns out to be just too expensive... has anyone been to Laos, Vietnam, or somewhere else that would be interesting?

Tue, Apr. 29th, 2008, 02:56 pm
It's Embarrassingly True



Your Thinking is Abstract and Sequential



You like to do research and collect lots of information.

The more facts you have, the easier it is for you to learn.



You need to figure things out for yourself and consider all possibilities.

You tend to become an expert in the subjects that you study.



It's difficult for you to work with people who know less than you do.

You aren't a very patient teacher, and you don't like convincing people that you're right.

Wed, Apr. 23rd, 2008, 02:24 pm
I'm on Facebook but it's still Scary

Being a programmer, I can hardly be accused of being a Luddite. However, I am still habitually paranoid of the Internet and all the information-sharing that's going on. Data is great, but I still want anonymity and privacy. I suppose it hearkens back to the "old days" when people were more taciturn regarding personal details. Everyone used a handle and now its so passe.

I'm noticing more and more how far behind I am in this "new" Internet culture. Things are changing constantly at light speed without thought or consideration of ramifications. It's all really cool and all, but I am so detached from it. Somehow, despite being one of those people that develops the technology driving this change, I don't feel as though I am a part of it. I got left on the side of the road when it was still considered a highway I guess.

So what now then? People don't care that they're broadcasting to their friends, acquaintances, future employers, and colleagues that they're lazy, salacious, self-absorbed, narcissists? They don't mind that crazy ex-lovers or obsessive stalkers are more empowered than ever to follow their exploits? This is all good?

I'm probably exaggerating the possible or even likely effects in my pathetically delusional paranoia. It could be that nothing ill has come from telling a company everything about us from what shampoo we like to how we met all of our friends. Perhaps the information we provide it is simply noise that no one is really listening to. Perhaps it is narcissistic of me to think that some organization out there may be watching. What, if anything, is there to be honestly concerned about?

I suppose the first real step in my adoption of facebook will be to put my anxieties to rest.

But a part of me still doesn't want old high-school friends finding me and telling me all about their lives. I really don't care. If I did, we would have kept in touch.

I also don't want to have to explain to various family members why I won't friend them.

Am I twisted?

Fri, Mar. 14th, 2008, 10:59 am
Nietzche and a warm blanket pls

The Great Man ... is colder, harder, less hesitating, and without respect and
without the fear of "opinion"; he lacks the virtues that accompany respect and
"respectability", and altogether everything that is the "virtue of the herd".
If he cannot lead, he goes alone. ... He knows he is incommunicable: he finds
it tasteless to be familiar. ... When not speaking to himself, he wears a mask.
There is a solitude within him that is inaccessible to praise or blame.

-- Friedrich Nietzche, The Will to Power

Wed, Mar. 5th, 2008, 10:28 am
Girly Man

true manliness sounds like a rather comedic trait to possess.

while the article is laughable, and rightfully so, it still disturbs me that such atomic traits as "manliness" that make up my gender identity are more likely to make me giggle than consider them seriously.

Is it just me -- do I not identify as a man?

Maybe I am more disembodied than I tend to realize.

Still, one is curious. Is the identity of "man," be superseded by something new and if so, by what?

Mon, Mar. 3rd, 2008, 09:41 am

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